Depois de mais de 7000 horas de tf2 e passando por mais de 11 ratos de jogo diferentes devido a eles terem sido destruídos após uso e abuso constante, rasgando vários tapetes de rato de jogo a ponto de parecerem que estavam pegando fogo (meu puretrak atual que eu tenho recentemente já está severamente desgastado) e passar incontáveis horas tentando aperfeiçoar meu jogo me trouxe onde estou agora. Banido de praticamente todos os servidores do jogo em que dediquei tanta energia e adorei, por causa do meu estilo de jogo excepcionalmente consistente e rápido combinado com o fato de que um grande grupo de pessoas se ressentem de mim por causa da minha atitude e exibição pobres na comunidade.
Eu superei agora tbh. Após a proibição, houve algumas noites em que eu não conseguia dormir e acordava suando, enfurecido, deprimido e cheio de ódio, mas ... Percebi então que o maior erro que cometi na comunidade competitiva tf2 foi ser uma parte disso. Não quero fazer parte de grupos que me odeiam por meus talentos e por ser eu mesma.
Um jogador que foi soldado e demo por muito tempo e sendo acusado de ser um aimbotter .. é meio revoltante. A qualidade dos jogadores neste jogo é muito baixa, embora eu não tenha jogado tf2 por alguns meses, ainda sou capaz de entrar em servidores mge e pug em contas alt e esmagar a escória autistraliana que tem jogado essa merda todos os dias desde meu banimento, primeiro jogo, embora eu tenha jogado MOBAs por semanas a fio e de fato nenhum jogo fps. É uma desgraça. Essas pessoas pararam de melhorar, enferrujaram e perderam a capacidade. Eu nunca parei e permaneci incrivelmente consistente.
Não estou realmente preocupado com o que as pessoas pensam de mim em relação a trapacear, um grande número de pessoas me viu jogar IRL e as pessoas que jogaram tf2 comigo regularmente entendem minha abordagem do jogo e o que faço para melhorar, as pessoas sabem o que é certo.
Mas mesmo assim, isso não significa nada. Mais importante ainda, eu sei a verdade.
Eu realmente gostaria de ter ido para algumas das maiores lans, mas é muito difícil para mim em minha posição atual em Christchurch. Antes do banimento, o motivo pelo qual eu queria ir era conhecer algumas pessoas incríveis, mas após o banimento era apenas porque eu queria provar quem era o melhor e provar a mim mesmo.
você não me entende como pessoa e nunca vai me entender como jogador
Notice that the overwhelming amount of drama and inflammation surrounding this situation has nothing to do with what was said, or even what this person has said, but instead almost entirely with the manner of which it has been responded to.. and rightfully so; It's extraordinarily misguided and backwards to systematically punish people for any usage of words but it becomes straight up malevolent when you have those who actively wield the unacceptability of language as a weapon to smite those that they don't like. Does anyone here genuinely believe that the people who try and enforce censorship e.g cracking down on terms such as the N word are doing it for the betterment and inclusivity of the plethora of African American Australian players in the Ozfortress Team Fortress 2 community? Or is it more likely that they do it to enforce their ideology of what is and isn't acceptable upon others and to try and crush those who dissent from such tenets?
If you've had any kind of interaction with the type of people I'm talking about you should know that they are some of the most vehemently spiteful around. Despite what they say, their motives do not come from a place of compassion. One particularly sickening shit cunt, for instance, takes it upon himself to scour through my logs, my discord chats, my vods and even has spectated me in mge just to try and get me in trouble with admins. I recently got kicked from the TVLIVE casting team without warning (as decided by Ozfort admins) for making a joke several months ago during a stream of a game that had nothing to do with TF2 in a clip that no longer even exists. "Can't find the clip at the moment thanks to Twitch but it's something we don't want to have lurking around in the background anytime we have you on TFLIVE, so with that I just want to say that we've removed your discord roles and taken you off of our talent list." Does that fact that I actually took casting seriously matter? Nope.
In premier and even high prem Australasian TF2 i.e the representing division of Ozfortress, games are filled with the sort of explicit language that these relatively unknown players are and will be getting infracted for. Oftentimes these things are said (usually over voice chat) with context, irony and humour and are frequently among some of the funniest and most memorable moments that occur. Hardly ever do these sorts of situations involve actual "bigotry" or discrimination and in the rare instances they do, it seldom has anything to do with the swear words used but instead the usage of them i.e context or intent. If these representing players of our community were held to the same standards, I would wager that 80% of prem would be have been banned by now; several of whom would be serving numerous life sentences. Obviously that isn't tenable for the the sake of a league and would never happen, so what's the fair solution?
Stop punishing people for using WORDS. Words are made to be said. Who's the supposed moral authority that gets to decide what you can and can't say anyway? If you're even remotely close to being an adult and are playing a highly competitive video game in which you bludgeon, burn and explode people to death and can't handle hearing language that violates your safe space sensibilities, you're either a dumb, pathetic pussy or an actual bigot. Regardless, you should probably put your hands over your eyes and ears for the rest of your life because if you can't deal with it in an online game, I can't imagine how you'd deal with it outside of it.
The irony is that these sorts of rules make people more divisive and less receptive to their supposed intent, as you've clearly seen. Admins get their work cut out for them and anti-admin sentiments grow. Moderator function shouldn't be to protect groups of people from hearing no-no words, it should be to maintain the integrity of the game and protect individuals from actual instances of bullying and harassment.
Edit: guys please stop dming me this is a copypasta
After 7000 + hours of tf2 and going through over 11 different gaming mice due to them being wrecked after constant use and abuse, tearing up several gaming mouse pads to the point of them looking like they were set on fire (my current puretrak that i got recently is already frayed severely) and spending countless hours attempting to perfect my game has gotten me where I am now. Banned from practically every server of the game that I devoted so much energy into and loved, because of my exceptionally consistent and fast playstyle combined with the fact that a large group of people resent me because of my poor attitude and display within the community.
I'm over it now tbh. Following the ban there were quite a few nights where I couldn't sleep at all and would wake up in a sweat infuriated, depressed and hateful but.. I realized then that the biggest mistake I've made in the tf2 competitive community was being a part of it. I don't want to be a part of groups that hate me for my talents and for me being me.
A player who mained soldier and demo for my length of time and being accused of being an aimbotter.. it's kinda revolting. The quality of players in this game is really low, even though I haven't played tf2 in quite a few months, I'm still able to join mge and pug servers on alt accounts and crush the autistralian scum who have been playing that shit everyday since my ban, first game, even though I've been playing MOBAs for weeks on end and in fact no fps games at all. It is a bit of a disgrace. These people have stopped improving and get rusty and fade in ability. I never stopped and remained incredibly consistent.
I'm not really concerned about what anything thinks of me in regards to cheating, a large number of people have seen me play irl and people who have played tf2 with me regularly understand my approach to the game and what I do to improve, those people know what's right.
But even then, that doesn't mean anything. Most importantly I know the truth.
I really wish that I could have gone to some of the bigger lans but it's too difficult for me in my current position within christchurch. Before the ban the reason I wanted to go was to met some awesome people, but following the ban it was only because I wanted to prove whose better and prove myself.
if you can't handle me at my worst you dont deserve me at my best.
can we do something about this infmaous dickbig420 guy?? hes really tearing shit up in the pug scene on that sniper character (the one w the big gun(
the deep state sends its regards